Terrible twos! And if you want to tell me that three is worse, kindly keep your mouth shut. In the midst of this, the last thing I need to hear is that there is something more awful looming on the horizon.
Maybe it’s the potty training. Maybe it’s the oppressive, never-ending, soul-sucking heat and humidity of this summer. Maybe it’s just the age. Heck, maybe it’s me! But the Brady and I have been fighting like cats and dogs for the last week or two and I am SO over it!
A lot of our fights are pee based. When he resists my suggestions that he needs to go, he says to me, “Mommy, do you wanna fight about this pee situation?” Which is totally hilarious and also very frustrating. He would love to choose to just stop peeing altogether, which I have told him time and time again is just not an option. Instead he likes to throw a tantrum for 10 minutes, then run away, and then come back to me, ever so sweetly to say “Mommy, I think I need to pee now.”
We had a serious battle in the bathroom at Barnes and Noble today. I thought someone was going to call security to come in after us! But it’s not just peeing. Lately it seems like everything causes a huge fight: going to the playground, leaving the playground, what to eat, eating at all, playing games on the computer, watching tv, taking a bath. You name it, we’ve had a fight about in the last few days, I swear.
These are the times when I feel like maybe I just wasn’t cut out to be a mother. Where is that well of calm serenity that moms who decide to have 5 draw from? Do they just have better kids than me? I feel worn out, drained of patience, fed up, and just plain exhausted. Lately I seem only to see the moms having lovey-dovey days with their kids, happily floating through life, and I feel blind to the other moms with frowns on their faces, shouting at their kids as they run away through the playground.
This too shall pass, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger and all that. Life will go on and get better and probably get worse. Right now, I’m just super psyched that it’s Friday and I get to go at this with a partner for two days. Woohoo for the weekend!